Chemo 1 - Day 5

Had about three hours solid sleep but wake up feeling surprisingly good. I am not feeling hot so hopefully the flushes will leave me alone for a while. I don't have to take any steroids today as that course of tablets has finished now. I feel a little bit apprehensive about this as a few women have commented about feeling very low during this period. I try not to think about it too much though and just figure that I can only go with the flow. At least I am aware of it and feel some what prepared should it happen.

Hubby is taking our son to rugby today for a special training day with the London Wasps and then they are going to be watching the match afterwards. As I'm a bit nervous about being left alone for most of the day my mum and step dad come up to babysit me.
I get up and have a wash and go downstairs to say hello. I feel pretty strange being downstairs after spending the last few days in bed but I soon start to feel better. I end up actually up and downstairs for most of the day.
We watch old re-runs of Only Fools and Horses and have some lunch and just spend some time chatting. I feel almost human again.

At 2:00pm it's down to my mum to give me my cell boosting injection as I'm still not brave enough to do it myself yet. I go through all the instructions with her and I prepare myself ready for the shot. My mum approaches me with the needle and then right at the last second backs out. She apologises and then tries again for attempt number two. This time the needle touches skin, but she jumps up once more telling me she can't do it. This is making me laugh but at the same time anxious as I'm gearing myself up only for mum to keep buggering off again. Finally, on the third attempt, the injection is given.

About 4:30pm my brother, his wife and my adorable little niece arrive with a surprise visit. I'm so happy to see them but feel a little bad as being up all day is starting to take its toll and I'm beginning to fade. I can feel myself nodding off so they only stay for a cup of tea and then head off home after about an hour.
As soon as they leave I decide to get back into my bed and I have to say I was more than ready for it. At least now though I can see a light at the end of this week and I know it won't be too long before I am up and about as normal again. Also if this is the worst that I am likely to feel after each chemo session then really I'm very, very lucky.


I am fast asleep by 7:00pm and sleep through until about 1:00am. I'm only awake for a couple of hours though and by 3:00am I have drifted off again.